Something I have yet to master with my new life, that I have never had the urgency nor felt the necessity to do before is setting boundaries. I do not only mean physical boundaries. Though that is an obvious given, I have new physical boundaries set. I had no clue there would emotional boundaries I need to set. I think these are going to be the most difficult.
I have always been one who could sit and listen to all problems, past, present, and future that anyone had or thought they would have. I did that gladly. I still want to, but I realized today that in doing so, I am easily triggered. Triggering turns a great day into an anxious, fear, nauseated, trembling day, requiring the need to regroup and begin anew at trying to silence “her” fears and my anxiety as well. I hate what my life has become. I was doing so well. I was doing so well!
I am sitting at the computer working on editing the photos I took today. Trying really hard to stay in the now. I think some photos came out really well for day two, but admittedly I am having such a hard time focusing on it. The pictures seemed to turn out much better than yesterday.
My illusive caterpillar even posed quite nicely out of the darkness. I was surprised he was still on the same weed, but then again, the spider is creeping closer, so maybe I should not be. I do not think I would move either. I was also able to catch a couple of lizard friends sunbathing also. There are a few shots of flowers in our yard that I will post too.
For now, I am going to go crawl in bed beside my husband and eat chocolate pudding and watch television. I also need to cut out some things for the lesson I am teaching the children at Church tomorrow.
Hope you will enjoy the pictures.