I Want You To Be Brave

Someone else introduced me to this song recently. Tonight as a dealt with someone very passive aggressive, realizing I have yet to fix my boundaries with this individual, this song becomes my anthem. I want to be brave with this individual, but some relationships are so tender, almost not considered a relationship as much as you beg for it to be one.

You wonder when it is time to just cut bait and realize you gave it your all, and your all was never good enough. It would never be good enough. Your energy should not be wasted on such, or should it? I have always been the one to recast and recast until my hands bled, and my heart bled from trying to save a relationship. I do not have the emotional energy or fortitude anymore.

Am I going to stand my ground? No, probably not. If I see a flicker of light that they care or that they need me, my arms are open wide. It has always been that way. It is that trust issue. Not trusting those I should, trusting those I should not.

Hello door mat.

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About Hope

I am forty year old survivor and a five year old victim of sexual abuse. I live with severe depression and anxiety, and in 2013 was diagnosed with DID and PTSD. My journey is to reintegrate my alter and the adult me into a whole person, healthy person, and one that can empathize with others.

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