Time To Find That Dandelion

Last night I had a restless night. When I slept, I tossed and turned in a fitful sleep. When I awake, my anxiety through the roof. Today, I still keep reminding myself to unclench my jaws. They ache from the grip I had all night, but it requires a conscious effort to not clench them tightly. How I hate anxiety. I am trying to avoid Xanax, because I do not want to get addicted to it. It has been several days since I took one, well three. That is pretty good, I do not think I will make it through the day without one today though. My heart is raising, my palms are sweating. I hate it!!

I spent time working on the layout of the other blog a good bit of the morning trying to relax, but that did not relax me as I had hoped. How unfortunate, I enjoy doing it, but it did not relax me as I really wanted it to. I am going to try walking outside and taking some pictures. Something has to give.

Am I ever going to be normal? I think I am going to go find that dandelion that I photographed the other day and wish upon it. I pray to my hearts content, I suppose a wish or two will not hurt.

I am ready to be off of this emotional roller coaster. I am so ready!

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About Shanna

I'm Shanna. Living each day the best I can. Trying to learn and grow to be the daughter my Father in Heaven sees in me. Trying to overcome the trials of this life, and find some joy in each day.

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