The last several days I have been compiling MP3s to help redirect my thoughts when I get really bad or start going there. I know that I have requested y’all to send me songs too. That request is still open. I asked my friends and family on Facebook also and received a great outpouring of response. I love being introduced to new artists and finding new gems in music. The music I have loaded so far seriously touches every genre imaginable. I even put some songs on there for Little Shanna. It was almost fun selecting songs with her.
Some of the music brings back wonderful peaceful memories of old country gospel. Listening to it with my parents in their room on 8 tracks. I have some monster ballads, rap, 80s and 90s pop, classical and contemporary piano and cello, and some indie. I love music.
As I added songs I thought about what I was trying to accomplish. There are times I want to just escape into the music and sing the familiar songs. Other times I will need to be reminded of my worth and that the struggles are worth every minute, and that this is not my final destination. Sometimes I need to be reminded of my beauty inside and out. Then there are the times that I need a good laugh. Little Shanna wanted children’s songs, so I guess she wants to remind me not to forget her and the child in me.
I have felt stronger today. Want to associate it with the music and learning how to communicate with Little Shanna, and I have decided to keep calling her by her name. One reason is because it is so important to her, another is because even though “Little” is the child in the case, “Little Hope” has a negative connotation to it, as in not much hope. I chose Hope as my blogging name as a positive name to emphasize the HOPE I have that I will reclaim my Narnia, and my life. Beginning to recognize now if that means integrating or accepting Little Shanna, I will be okay, she is anything but little hope.
Part of my good day, I found part of my voice. My good friend, my Mother’s best friend has dealt with her computer since 2010. Replacing six motherboards and a video card unacceptable. I called the company for her today and talked to a very nice gentleman, of which I am most grateful for. I explained the situation and we conferenced in the store and my friend. As a result when she arrived at the store and talked to the manager they agreed to make it right and she left with a new computer. I am so grateful for a kind corporate gentleman well versed in his job, extremely personable, and focused on customer satisfaction. All of which are so hard to find in the corporate world today with people overworked and underpaid. I am so grateful that it was a pleasant experience because it is usually when I get overly stressed, or as Mother says, “Lose Control” that is when Little Shanna takes control.
Since this post is about music I must share a humorous song that I put on my MP3. I preface this with my husband loves zombie movies, me not so much. I did watch Warm Bodies with him because it was a zombie chick flick, but generally, not my thing. I found this song and sent it to him cause well, I just love him. 😉