Tag Archives: Individual Worth

I Once Loved Roller Coasters

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This morning is someĀ better. I am still very anxious and depressed, but not teetering. I realize how many kind and good people read my blog, and they are going through a lot right now too. “Our community” helps one another when we are down. Kind words of encouragement, the reminder of the beautiful things in life and in me, virtual hugs, and a simple “like” they let me know someone is listening and cares.

I have my amazing family. I know the are weary. It is hard having someone you love with severe emotional problems. I could charter a club, I have been on the other side. Living daily, not knowing what to say or do, fear of triggering them. Fear of the backlash. Not knowing if the will be there in the morning physically or emotionally. Holding your tongue and swallowing your emotions, sacrificing your own mental health while they work on theirs. Crying more than laughing. I hate that I put anyone through this roller coaster.

Drops of Awesome: The Blog

Drops of Awesome

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I really believe in this and want to spread the word. I hope it is contagious.

So often we are defined by the negative events that happen to us or negativity around us that we forget our awesomeness. I originally wanted to have just a page on this blog dedicated, but as I have thought about it, to me it is too important and too exciting to be hidden under a page menu. It needed its own blog.

Please share your awesomeness with the world. Lets see the ripple effect in our own lives and in the lives of others. Drops can be funny moments, moments you served, large or small successes in your days. Visit and visit often. If you have more than one awesome thing to share a day, wonderful! I know we would all love to hear!

The way the page is set up, at midnight EST every day a new date and inspirational quote post magically appears. Our drops for that day will be made as comments.

UPDATE: Drops of Awesome

There is some confusion about the page. It is not a new blog, yet, just a page at the top of this blog, and put your drops in as a comment. We have a few drops in there right now. I love it. Warms my heart! Kudos! Kudos!

YOU ARE AWESOME!!!

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Angels Among Us & Individual Worth

I am of infinite worth with my own divine mission, which I will strive to fulfill.

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Lots and lots of tears today. One brother spoke on trust today at Church. Trust. Always an issue for me. Trusting those I should not, not trusting those I should. After Church I asked him if I could speak to him. We talked for a while.

In our Church, the Young Women have values they memorize and employ in their every day lives. He asked if I remembered the Young Women’s theme. We recited every Sunday when I was a teenager and again when I was called as a Young Women’s leader. It easily rolled off my tongue.

We are daughters of a Heavenly Father who loves us, and we love Him. We will stand as witnesses of God at all times, in all things, and in all places as we strive to live the Young Women’s values which are:

Faith

Divine Nature

Individual Worth

Knowledge

Choice and Accountability

Good Works

and

Integrity…

He then asked me about my individual worth. Something that I seem to have forgotten about. What he reminded me was that my worth was not linked to anything that happens here on earth. My rapist cannot dim my infinte worth, nor can my health problems. Yes, these are trials of this life.—Awful, hard gut wrenching trials, do not effect my worth. I am a daughter of Heavenly Father.

As part of learning the values, we associated each value with a color. Faith-White, Divine Nature-Blue, Individual Worth-Red, Knowledge-Green, Choice and Accountability-Orange, Good Works-Yellow, and Integrity-Purple. Just as our awful memories have triggers, seeing these colors, after learning and studying about them triggered our minds to each of the values.

This brother suggested that I create my own trigger for Individual Worth. I think I am going to create a red knotted friendship bracelet. I could not find my embroidery thread last night. Our hopes is that when I look at the bracelet throughout the day I will be reminded of my infinite worth, and be able to dispell the self abasing thoughts that I have throughout the day. Cling to the knowledge that I am of infinite worth.

“I want to tell you, each and every one of you, that you are well acquainted with God our Heavenly Father….for there is not a soul of you but what has lived in His house and dwelt with Him year after year; and yet you are seeking to become acquainted with Him, when the fact is, you have merely forgotten what you did know. There is not a person here today but what is a son or a daughter of that Being.” -Brigham Young

“You were preserved to come to the earth in this time for a special purpose. Not just a few of you, but all of you. There are things for each of you to do that no one else can do as well as you–If you will let Him, I testify that our Father in Heaven will walk with you through the journey of life and inspire you to know your special purpose here.” -H. Burke Peterson

I am very grateful Heavenly Father sent this Brother to our congregation today. He spoke words that comforted me, words that could have only been known through the Spirit as he listened intently and was His mouthpiece during a Priesthood Blessing. Through him Heavenly Father answered some of my secret pleading prayers, in words that I could not only hear, but feel.

I know His angels are around me, but I firmly believe He sends us angels in the flesh sometimes too, that is what He did today. He knew I needed it. My spirit need a reprieve, and guidance from someone not closely involved.

He is a mindful Father.